I needed my family together
but you didn't get that.
Instead of encouraging this,
you sought to tear it down
like so many I already know.
I got caught up in the lies.
I really thought you believed in me.
But it turns out you never did.
You doubted me time and time again.
Claiming to be my best friend.
Had my heart years ago
and ripped it out of my chest,
left it there to dry up on that ice cold floor.
It was so bad that I had to flee,
by a change of my number
and a secret exit from social media I was free of thee.
Stayed to myself for the rest of 2016, until I met him.
He was the breath of fresh air I needed.
Finally someone that made it clear it was no one else, only me.
As time, trial and tribulation made us stronger,
the jealousy brewed within you.
Yet your the same one that thought I'd amount to nothing.
You had no faith in me at all,
you who live that lonely life,
but is in search of the very thing I have.
Someone to love, someone that will love you no matter what,
a child to call your own, that closeness of all this.
Yes you crave it.
After all these years you believe
I'm the one to give you this.
Such a heavy load to bare.
No matter what was said I had a choice to make.
I chose my family instead. And I'm very glad I did.
The spirit in you reared it's ugly head and
said: yeah I had a feeling you'd say this we'll see!
I became furious.
You didn't even believe me!
So many things I could have said back,
but instead I chose not to reply,
don't entertain this for another second,
don't give him the satisfaction.
He's told you everything you need to know within a matter of seconds.
Let him be he's no longer worth the time or the energy.
Most would rather see you miserable
then see you have joy if that joy is not shared with them.
He believed like many others that
he was supposed to fit in that space,
but sadly that space was no longer made for him
and he couldn't understand that.
Leave the past where it is and that's what I did
But if I could tell him one last thing
it would be that I'm never coming back.
I see what you really think
and you don't take me seriously,
that's not the kind of energy I need.
Even to this very day you have no faith in me
so l'm permanently closing that door,
this is not at place I desire to be anymore.
This realization hit me hard and I can't ignore it
but I'm glad I know the truth.
You always wanted it to be you
despite all the hurt and pain you put me through.
Trying to right your wrongs but that
was never something I needed from you.
You even forgot why we ended up
going our separate ways in the first place.
You walked around for all those years
with that guilt but I forgave you ages ago.
I don't need those apologizes anymore.
I moved on and it's time for you to do the same.
We had some amazing conversations they were interesting,
I confided in you and in the end you became a frenemy.
I honestly hope you find what your looking for
because it won't Ever come from me.
And with that I take my leave and
not just for a short while, but this time,
I leave
permanently.......
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